Morning...Well, I'm not at work this time. Nor am I going if my manager allows me not to...send him a text message already. Don't think I have many days off left anyway. But I absolutely can't imagine going to work and having to talk with a cheerfull voice to people all day long and pretend everything is fine cause I don't have any private space at work. Not after 2 hours of sleep and last nights events. What do I do now? Hope that low life screenshot person is happy now. If I ever find out the name ...

But what's this fate. 1-2 weeks after I decide I don't want him to announce his mother this happens? All the year I wanted him to tell her and nothing like this happened. What did I do so bad that karma plays such a joke on me. He was visiting not even 2 days ago. When I think that the relationship starts going somewhere it's over? Why?

What right does she have to judge over me when she never even met me? And him obeying is like...actually nevermind, I don't think I as a european girl have any comparison to such a thing. Not to mention I kind of knew this would happen, but still. I actually executed this break up myself as well the way I pushed. If I said No, your not breaking up with me' would it change anything? But would I want a relationship where he chooses his mothers ridiculous reasons as enough to really break up with me as she wants him to? I've been wondering also if we should be having a relationship that didn't work to begin with and has so many obstacles. This is not a movie, people don't face all the troubles and have a happy end. People choose the easy way out when it get's too hard.

What do I do with all the stuff? Bears, perfumes, gifts, images & memories. Hide or burn the stuff and get a shotgun to get rid of the memories. I guess no matter how positive and good I'll try to make the relationship sound, it still has no point when the other person isn't willing to go through it with you. He knew all along that hes gonna break up when his mother doesn't agree. Prolly the reason why he wouldn't stop whinning about being scared to lose me, even after I said that unless he breaks up I'm not going anywhere.

I liked this status I saw on Amys MSN: People often rely on others too much & take others for granted. Just learn to pick urself up when your down.

Think I'll go back to bed soon...Nothing to do today now anyway.

Bbye