Dear blog... I'm sort of really creeped out. I just wanted to take a breath of air outside on the balcony and then I saw a guy on the rooftop of that new build house starring into our kitchen creepingly...At first I looked at him, like really looked, giving him the notice that I saw him and that whatever pervert he is, he should go hide...but he doesn't move one inch at all.... No matter how many times i looked he just still stands there the same way. And when I called my dad to tell him about it, I pointed at him told him where exactly and he saw nothing? ... Please God let me wake up cause this is too creepy. I don't want to have hallucinations like my mom did...I'm really quite scared...quite a lot...even if it were a real person, what human being can not move at all for this long...

Hi again blog...I somehow stopped posting on a daily basis during work...Maybe I should start again? Geez so bored... seriously. But damn lazy and tired to do anything productive in this heat. Also my head hurts from the lack of oxigen...Can't wait for tomorrow's rain, like honestly. This heat is really impossible...I love summer for christs sake, but this weather is so... over the top omg. Tropical, humid, just plain crazy. This is not afrika for egypt for christs sake, this is middle europe. And its like 28grades celsius during night as well...It never freaking cools off! T__T And hmm...I'm at a loss of what to do. Today I just noticed I haven't been really talking to Fan this previous week either. Guess it didn't bother me since I only noticed now somehow. Oh well too busy putting up with other men. With a few despos...I wonder if one of them is at least decent. I doubt the guy at work is decent... He just seems like everything has to be his way and I can't find a proper conversation with him. That's what you get for telling a Software Technician your name, when he chats you up in the kitchen -_-' Your dumb Monika dumb! You should have run with your coffee lol... Sigh...things have changed. Somehow I feel it's all different. Work...Private life... Guys that approach me. I remember this guy at work said "You're way more than the average, I'm surprised you talk to me." Yea I'm surprised too I talked to him... Sigh... What do I do. So bored.

Yesterday a colleague was on my computer, after her shift ended, talking to a british guy. Then later on he called my phone line and asked me to put him through to Cust Care and said I have a soft voice and easy on the ears lol...Then when my shift ended he was walking by, the named colleague went to talk to him and the british guy pointed at me and asked if thats me... no idea which way I'm supposed to take it but... Yea...

Then a few guys write me over internet...Dunnoe I think I might actually have found someone on my wave lenght yesterday, since the conversation was fluent and I actually had fun talking to him. But yea... hmm...

Geez Moni find a hobby. Testing out men is not a sport (even thought you might win)

Also the last two days I saw Ryan online on MSN, however he didn't write me and I also didn't write him so... But still surprised. Hmm... I guess I should start doing something. Maybe make myself a strong coffee and watch some anime...Or do some cleaning? Or go shop?... I actually havent spend more than 40euros since I got paid and thats 3 days ago... And from that 15 euros were on the asian restaurant and 15 were on shoes and then just some groceries like shower gel and cat food...

Now I remember I woke up from a nightmare...I dont really remember what it's been about anymore, I think I and some other people were travelling or got lost...then I only remember we got stopped by some guy asking if we understand chinese. Then that guy showed me a picture of a missing-lost-dead (no idea) guy... then I only remember being really sad, to the point that I felt so overhelmed by sadness, that my chest felt so heavy it pulled me out of sleep. -_-' Creepy I know...no idea what that sort of dream is supposed to tell me. I don't usually have dreams that convert into real physical pain. -_-'

Oh well I guess I quit my rambling here and like... do something. Whatever. Just something (that preferably makes me cooler). ~.~

BBye~