Morning blog o.o today also don't have much to say. Hmm, woke up, got dressed, put make up on and accesorized, then went to work, then started all my programs, then went to make coffee, then came back to find out i have to restart computer and start all my programs all over again, then wrote email and now drinking coffee and picking up stupid german calls. o.o' Yay...

Yesterday was a nice day, at work as well and home too. Met with Klaudia and she brough awesome coffee and cake with her, then she wanted me to try out my dresses and pose... Later I listened to this song lol N Love with Bubz...so sweet!!! D: And a good beat too lol. Really impressive to a girl to receive such, even tho I read that she's taken, so sorry guys no chinese girl for ya. Shes really cute tho...making me jealous T_T Hmm have so much to do... will get braces I decided and teeth whitening after that, gonna continue with my body lotion ritual after shower each day, keep taking care of my silky hair o.o' And have to get new glasses before I go blind. And I decided to throw all the ugly underwear and clothes that i wear at home and replace them with something pretty but comfortable. It really kills my self-confidence, the way I look around home... so for the sake of my self-confidence, gotta kill all that makes me unconfident :) Should start training a bit maybe as well... but I guess thats optional, I'm already pretty slim enough, just that I would need to tone myself a bit. So that's also why I want to buy all those suspender belts and stockings btw D: Confidence boost lol. And have to take more care of my skin ... I had such pretty skin last year during winter-spring-summer, when I was taking french classes. For once cause I wanted to look pretty pretty for Ryan and everyone and secondly cause I had the TIME and energy to be running to my cosmetician THAT often... So... Now I still want to be pretty for everyone but the time and energy became significantly less...So yea, have to stop being lazy or I won't get any new boyfriend whos worth me.

Well, not that I really wan a NEW one, but I resigned on that. Whatever I would want to try it has no sense when only one person want's to be with the other and the other person refuses to. Also it doesn't bother me anymore really, I have a slight sad feeling every now and then, but all in all I became a really happy girl with the sunshine *shy* ;) Not even the webcam yesterday hurt lol, it did nothing~~~ Nothing at alllllll D: That's good, I guess that's how long I need to separate. Two weeks and many many rejections. It's only gonna hurt once more when jealousy gonna stab me, but after that... Well I know the break up process already. I got over Ryan as well. I'll just maintaing being very good friends with Fan, since it doesn't hurt me anymore. o.o'

Tonight going out with Thai lol for coffee and thinking where else I will drag him to kill my time on a friday night. But I really need to relax and sleep out, so prolly wont be out for too long and rather sit at home in front of computer and watch some anime, then sleep out properly on saturday ~.~

Also I played audi EU yesterday and 3 months! And I'm still so pro! Lol...Went straight for c6 8k 140bpm and wasn't doing that bad at all for it being the first games and THREE months. x3 Lol I realised I still have that ring with Fan in audi eu...Think I will keep it, maybeeee....just maybeee I will convince him to play again D: Like in the old times even tho were not together anymore. Or i get a notebook from Dell and then i can tag my hearties! LOl I could buy some small laptop with already one paycheck... I don't want any powerfull notebook really, I want it to have a good soundcard and to be small so I can carry it around. Don't want to make it my 'main' computer cause I'm way too used to my desktop pc. With my HUGE monitor and the computer is powerfull as well so yea... Can just buy some small notebook for 500-600 euro for this kind of purpose. :)

Ok well I stop here and rather go read my magazines or facebook or smth.

Buh Bye