Good early morning, I just can't get back to sleep anymore even through I'm tired as hell and only slept for 4 hours. Hmm lol, well it seems the game is over. That guy rather listen to his mother and rather entertain guests on saturday than visit me. And I lol, when he said that I just called Michal. He drove straight here within 5minutes. It's been fun for whole 2 hours, until I had too much absinth and broke into crying. Should I mention it's the first time ever I cried in front of anyone openly, not even at my own home? While he was patting my back, holding my hand and looking into my eyes, which is strangely weird I didn't find it so unpleasant. Or how should I say, even tho fine I know him for over 14 years, I met him the second time in the past 5 years and then I end up drunk like that, till I literally had to throw up 3 times, which is probably the lowest moment of my life. I never got that drunk that the world was spinning and my stomach got so sick. Also I'm quite sure I never was so pitifull looking with all my mascara and eyeliner running down my face. Strangely, for this moment. It doesn't hurt that much anymore. Well what to say, Fan doesn't love me anymore lol, break up with me cause of his MOTHER and then even refuse to break up with me face to face and take his stuff back cause he has to entertain guests? I mean come on...How much of a douche bag asshole can someone get...