Long time no see!

Dear blog! It's been ages! D: I actually wanted to stop writting here, cause its more of a complain-blog than anything else. But I think I'm determined to start over again and give you one more chance :)! As i now have great opportunities to update you while I'm at work! Dell sure isn't that busy anymore since I became an OTOG Agent! :))) Life's a bit complicated at the moment tho. Job situation is awesome, yea. But then personal stuff~ Moni still doesn't talk to Linda lol & Linda actually wrote me a Facebook message that we can forget it now if I don't see why I should apologize :) No Linda I don't see why I should apologize when you lied to me that day. So sorry?

Regarding Fan hmm. It's been a real roller coaster all along. Many things came out on the surface in the past. I should be really disappointed and angry. I was but there are always two sides to everything. I do feel things can become a lot better and clearer now that were honest. It's like a boulder fell off when the lies don't heavy on the relationship anymore. We have been through so much, there should be a point when it's enough and things turn good again :| I can't count anymore how many times we (I) broke up. But the situation is a bit different now. It's no more the little time he has, or our stupid arguments or audi that threaten our relationship anymore, not even his lies, cause I forgave him. I wonder if his mom really will not like me. But then again which mom likes the guys gf straight from begin. :| I don't wanna break up for good. No one ever meant more for me & I never forgave anyone this much or stayed with anyone for this long. It's over a year now. So dear God up there even tho I know we don't really have a good relationship with each other, you have always been mean to me! So you could help me out this one time lol.

I should start to sleep again as well...The past 4 days I slept between 2-4 hours each day. It's too much on me already. >< Need a break! But I want to spend more time with baby and then I have to stay awake longer into night, cause he's not awake in the mornings like I am. Mornings are bad, waiting for Fan to wake up cause I want to talk with him when I miss him. That's what I'm doing now, so I'm keeping myself entertained till he wakes up.

It should be 15th already! I have big plans with this months paycheck :))) I have a feeling for this month, thanks to special occasions, I will run out of money way too quick again. But for good things. Not just myself.

Ah I don't know what to write anymore, and it's only 9am so far! Help...tiredness, boredom...bad combination.

And I should get a common idea of what I need to do when I wanna visit London. Or even move there. I don't even know how it is with my insurance...I mean in case smth happens to me in there lol. Would be...bad. Yes. I'm actually pretty excited, I never agreed to go anywhere (I still do am scared of flying...)...But them I'm sure I'll have a great time there. And I stop rambling now finaly. So bbye~