Hi again dear blog~ Guess what I just took myself and went out at 11pm with Adam for some Kofola (in my case Caffee Latte) and we talked in a pub outside till 00:30am then went to McCafe for cake and chocolate till 1am and just talked about stuff. Was really nice since the weather is cooling off. And I feel a lot more sane right now. To be honest I don't know what to think about what happened. I don't know if I should think that it was my imagination if the guy isn't there in the morning anymore. I will check again around 5am or so when the sunlight is clear and I can see stuff again. I don't know what I'll do when I see him either...Maybe it was just some object looking similar to a person, with my bad eyesight and headache at that time maybe I didn't see correct. In any case I never thought I would have to deal with thinking I have hallucinations this young. I don't know what to think about dad not seeying the person, when I saw him clearly. If it's there till the morning and my parents see nothing again I think I go check my health as soon as possible. I definitely don't want to end up being psycho in my early twenties. Althought I dunnoe how to explain this happening to me. I was actually being really calm and happy lately. Maybe I was supressing too much stress? Maybe sadness? Maybe heat stroke? Or fatamorgana? I don't know really, it's been freakish. Althrough I don't feel scared in my room, but I am scared to go look again and see if it's there or not... I plan on gripping to reality anyway. Geez I know I have been talking about dying a lot and how life is worthless cause nothing good been happening to me, but really God no need to send me ghosts and hallucinations to send me to grave earlier. In a way I love life and I want to see what else it has in store for me ~.~ Please God just let it be come object looking like a man from a far... please. Or I have to deal with dead people and ghosts or hallucinations. I don't want to. Also I'm all alone on this. Even the only person I thought I could tell about this without them declaring me for blind or stupid made jokes about it. Thanks Fan, really didn't help. In times like this you see who's worth your time and whos not. Do i have to crawl over and beat the shit out of some stalker pervert peeking into my room? -_-' Where is my baseball bat... sigh...