Update

So I haven't posted for quite a while now. Had no space for these kind of things, as I was busy cleaning/preparing for my boyfriends visit & then wasn't even at home. Today I'm not leaving my room, need some recharging after spending all days out and lacking sleep for many reasons. Didn't even rly sleep the day before his arrival, that guy missed his flight and had to spend the night at the airport lol. So was accompanying him after a short rest, while he was doing some work stuff. Glad I woke up at around 2am? Or was it 4am? In either case, at least I had enough time to think of some outfit to wear, which would have to consist of many layers but still look pretty, which is a hard task... Seriously.

And another exiting thing, which I feel very good about :) On the way back from airport ( I mostly go airport to fetch him, if the circumstances allow it, since I learned how to get on the airport anyway) I overheard some tourist mention a kitten outside. And heard moving from a piece of grass between two streets. A rly tiny kitten in the cold weather outside, with no way to get to safety. I was pondering 3 stops long what to do...I would feel kinda bad for witnessing the kitten there but not doing anything about it. On the 4th stop I dragged my boyfriend out of bus and we walked back 3 stops to the spot we saw the kitten at! I guess for a moment he couldn't believe I seriously would go lol, he asked me 3 times before he even got out of the bus. We found the place again and had to do some 'beating around the bush' to find her lol. She hid into the bushes and was quite hard to spot her and take her out, but once I spotted her my boyfriend managed to take her out & I took her back to my place.








See how tiny she is? She surely wouldn't survive the cold for long. My dad accused me of stealing her from her mother, but seriously how would she get lost between two roads...I have no idea if someone abandoned this kitten or if she got lost from her mom, I would feel rly guilty for letting her stay there. And Fan found her rly adorable as well & I found him very adorable for finding her adorable, if that makes any sense. In any case I had no idea what to do with the kitten, I was spending the next few nights outside my place with my boyfriend, I couldn't leave her to my parents as they wouldn't allow me any more kittens & my cat didn't rly like her either. I suppose cat's dont like other kittens invading their teritory. But I could leave her to Linda until monday and then I would keep her, until we eventually found find her a new home~ But it never went so far, as I heard the mom of Linda's boyfriend fell instantly in love with the kitten and decided to keep her. So I assume the kitten is in good hands. ^^ Rly glad we went to find her, I don't think I have felt this good about doing smth for a very long time. And I can see her again at times if I ask Linda for it, at least I don't have to listen to Fan whining that he want's to see the kitten again. So cute my boyfriend lol.

Friday morning I was facing another dilemma after sleeping little...Which was "What to pack?!" for the next 3 days away from home. It's always such a thing, I don't wanna be carrying 50kg of stuff (nor do I want my boyfriend to carry it, when he already has enough of his own stuff to carry) nor do I wanna have the feeling that I'm missing a lot of things I'm used to at home. In the end I managed to pack what I need, was missing some clothes but still didn't wear all I brough with myself lol. Always such a thing with packing and spending nights at some other place. You think u packed little already, but then you find out u left at home what u would like to have and brought smth u wont make use of. This time it was no hotel in the first place, so I wouldn't get the "Pretty Woman" feeling upon entering a hotel, but an Apartement Residence. Can rly just praise it, it's been an awesome place to stay at (only the couch in the apartement we were staying at could be a bit wider for two ppl to lie at, while watching tv). But it was fairly big, had everything you would need while staying at there & the location was awesome, not to talk about the guy running it being quite sympathic. That's probably cuz it's not a place that's running big business. It's been a 4 room apartement, with kitchen and living room in one, bathroom, hallway and two bedrooms (from which one was locked). Had all u needed as well, couch, tv, dishwasher, fridge, microwave, electric stove, stuff u would require for cooking...the only thing we found missing was an oven, but u can live without that lol. Oh and the thing I missed was that there was no tv in the bedroom...like...I always fall asleep with tv on...since years...a habit. But the apartement we were originaly supposed to have had a tv in the bedroom, but the boiler was being repaired so we got the biggest apartement for more ppl for the same price (thats why the second locked bedroom). Can't rly complain rly, I had my boyfriends laptop to keep me entertained while in bed. And also I wasn't going to bed unless I was dead tired and then I wouldn't care anymore if the tv is on or off, or if there even is any, would just fall dead over. The feeling was almost like back in summer when he was sleeping few days at my place, when my parent's went to visit grandma =X Only that that time I was in charge of everything, including cooking...& I have to say...I was getting heartattacks when me n my bf were supposed to cook. I was rolling eyes even on the way he was boiling eggs. I guess kitchen is the girls domain? Men shouldn't invade it, when the girl is looking. Lol. But eating breakfast was quite something lol, as i never eat breakfast at home & also never will, I just wanna have my cup of coffee at mornings. He was even commenting on the way I'm cutting onion and that the pieces r too big! Bloody Hell lol. But it sure is nice to have him at 'home'. He went me for coffee&cake too, when I fell asleep on couch =x My personal delivery baby lol. But remind me that if I ever am to live with him, we have to have 2 separate bathrooms lol. He's taking longer than me in a bathroom Lol. In any case it was rly nice to be staying together at an apartement like that. Should repeat it soon.

The last two days (read Sunday evening and Monday) were spend outside. And Monday taught me a lesson. What's worser than a girl running from shop to shop and looking at everything? A man running from shop to shop, looking at everything BUT NOT LIKING ANYTHING Lol. Was getting quite a headache, not to mention my backache, from trying to shop with my boyfriend lol. He was trying on everything he liked and was looking for ages into mirror, only to be not sure weather it suits him or not. If you read this baby, YOU LOOKED GREAT IN MOST OF IT, should have bought more! You have nothing to wear and now I also know why lol. But I wonder since when he's so choosy after what I saw in his wardrobe...quite contradicting lol...My influence on him is getting back at me lol. Can't rly complain through, having now a rly rly nice and a rly rly handsome boyfriend lol. Call me shallow if you like, but letting him grow his hair longer and use contacts makes quite a massive difference to his appearance, only to the good. Linda also praised my skills when she met him, while we were giving the kitten to her. But truth be told, I was the one who told him that longer hair and contacts would suit him more, but hes the one who went through with the changes alone. So all the praising should go to him alone. I have to start taking more care of myself to keep up with him soon lol. By now I think I used up all of my thoughts and am just randomly rambling now. So I guess I'll stop here and leave other random stuff for the next blog post. Righty o.o

FINALY!

Only a short update! That I didn't sleep BUT finaly went to the institute! Only to receive two pieces of paper to fill out at home and bring back when I also have a paper from school confirming that I indeed am in a far studium. But hey I went there!

+ one pic



Can see the papers next to me Lol

Mommy's Boy

Firstly, Definition below:

A mommy's boy is a boy or a man who has a very close relationship with his mother. As an adult, a mommy’s boy may talk to his mother on a daily basis and spend more time with her than some consider normal. Often, he will turn to his mother when he needs advice and may respect her opinion above that of other family members and friends. In some cases, a mommy’s boy may continue to live at home with his mother far longer than most adults. A mommy’s boy willingly does things for his mother whenever she needs help and vice versa.Usually, the term mommy's boy carries negative connotations. These men are seen as overprotected, smothered, and incapable of doing things for themselves. Interestingly, however, daddy’s girls are not viewed as negatively. As such, it may be concluded that many view a close and protective relationship between a father and daughter as healthy, yet consider a man’s close relationship with his mother wrong and unnatural.Often, the person who has the strongest feelings of displeasure concerning a mommy's boy’s relationship with is mother is his wife or girlfriend. Frequently, a woman in this position feels insecure about the attention the mommy's boy gives his mother. She may believe his attention should be centered on her. The wife or girlfriend of the mommy's boy may be angered when he seeks his mother’s advice or shares intimate details about their relationship with her. Women in this situation often become extremely resentful of the mother/son relationships.In all fairness, the mother of a mommy's boy may feel jealous and resentful as well. She may believe her son’s significant other isn’t good enough for him. In fact, she may feel that no woman is really good enough for her son. In some cases, the mother of a mommy's boy may actually interfere with her son’s romantic relationship, attempting to cause problems and remain the center of his attention. The mommy's boy may be unaware or unwilling to face up to the negative emotions or behavior of either woman in his life. Though being a mommy's boy is often viewed negatively. It is interesting to note that many people think a man’s treatment of his mother is indicative of the way he will treat his wife or girlfriend. If that is true and the man can love both women, a mommy's boy may actually be a good partner in a close, romantic relationship. That is, of course, if the new woman can find a way to embrace his relationship with mommy and gain her acceptance as well. --Which wont happen

I feel like saying 'Choose' -.- both don't work

Taken out from http://www.wisegeek.com/what-is-a-mommys-boy.htm

To be honest, I kind of admire his devotion to his mom & I rly do think that u can judge how the guy will treat you accordingly to how he treated his mom. I find it sweet that he wanna care for her. But I can't deal with the fact that he's considering her when it comes to our relationship stuff. That he considers her when it comes to moving out & that he defenses his dinner times with teeth and nails.

Ur not supposed to live with ur parents for longer than it's necesary. Ur parents r supposed to raise u as an adult that can take care of himself and stand on his own feet & they raise them up with the thought in mind that they indeed WILL move out. It's only natural. The parental duty ends with adulthood to the most extend. I know there r special cases. I won't go into details here, cuz it's nobody's business. I can fully understand if someone has to take care of their parent when their badly sick. But I can't understand how someone plans his own live after his parents. And I find it kinda egoistical to tie ur kids down, cuz of ur own needs, when you know they should be leading their own life their own way. I rly can't deal with waiting for the next step in my relationship cuz of his mom lol. How does a girl deal with that. Unless shes rly an angel from heaven (and i know such girls still exist), any normal girl wont willingly give up things she want's because it interferes with whats best for the guys mom. Any normal girl ... i can't find any words to describe this around ... any normal girl wont willingly wait for the guy to move out until his mom remarries, because her boyfriend is yet not a day to day part of her life. And what's with my day to day part??? Why me? Why not her? You rly can't please both women in this case. She already has a bf, in the same city & they meet more regular than I meet her son. What more does she still want. I kinda refuse to go along with this, that's too much to ask for off me.

and here let's see if it's even possible to date a mommy's boy, I have taken out the answers from a page, the link will be at bottom.

--You cannot have a relationship with a mommy's boy. Trust Carrie on this.
I once saw a guy and knew at that moment he was meant for me. I cannot explain it, I just knew. We dated for about two years. He was the love of my life. We were in love. We were quite happy together. I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life. There was only one problem, his mommy. His mom liked me but she could not stop hovering over him.
He was 28 years old. His mom did his laundry. She cooked meals for him and brought them up so he could freeze them. She took care of his finances. She had his bank information and paid his bills and such. She even picked out his clothing.
She had a key to his apartment and would come over without calling all the time. She would get upset if I slept over as that was a sin.
We were going to move in together but he could not as his mom would have been mad at him.
I could not take it anymore. Three was a crowd. I broke up with him. We had several talks and he knew that he was a mommy's boy. He liked it I think.
So, from experience, you cannot have a relationship with a mommy's boy.
~Carrie

--nope been there done that and it didnt work because momma didnt want it to

--Nope. It isn't possible because he is already commited to one woman, and in order to be commited to you in the full sense of the word, he'd have to break ties with his mum.

And no, it isn't possible to make him break those ties; he has to decide when he's ready to do so.

Maria XOXO

--NO you can't!
no matter what he has his moms back. If you and his mom disagree - he will almost surely take her side. He will talk to her about private things between the two of you and will most likely take her advice (if she doesn't like you) and get rid of you.

I'm all for a guy who is close to his mom (speaks volumes about the type of person one is) However there is a difference between being close and still attached at the umbilical cord.

http://forums.plentyoffish.com/datingPosts4132424.aspx

Seems like a no? Can't date mommy's boys. No woman in their right mind can bear that. This hasn't rly been my blog post at all. But I rly wanted to check the internet if I'm overreacting or if I have a right to be very displeased about this matter. Seem's I'm not SO wrong to not be able to stand this.

Everything is too easy these days

Hmm I actually came to blog without having anything in mind that I could write. I have been only at home the last days, since I was sick so my whole days resolved around my pc. Finding it kinda sad. Being locked up at home all days long with nothing to do, but relaxing. It makes me very bored and kinda dependent of the people I talk to online. And so it comes that the last two days I have been having some arguments. Since other people have their lives and mine is pretty much down to zero due to this sickness. It's another thing I shouldn't be writing here about, because it's personal too. Maybe it's not such a good idea to keep this blog public, it doesn't serve its purpose as a diary this way, because there r a lot of things I don't wanna announce to everyone who might stumble upon this link. Maybe I need to open another 'diary', a paper one where I can write out everything that I can't write here. I'm a lot better now, so I actually might go to buy smth in a few hours. Sometimes I feel like such a burden to the people around me. Having only few friends, makes me very dependent on them. And since I don't even meet a lot with my friends recently I sure bothered my bf a lot. I don't rly wanna argue. People who know me for a longer time know that it takes a lot more to make me angry in real than it does over internet. It's rly a big difference. Internet makes everything a lot easier. No need for radio, television u can listen or watch those both on ur pc. No need to be renting/buying movies or CDs, u can download anything you want. No need to call your friends, you only need to wait till they sign on MSN/ICQ/Facebook/Skype...anything. It's also very easy to blame someone when you don't have to look at them. Very easy to break up, when you're safely at home and alone with urself. Very easy to say ugly things without feelings guilty since you don't see any hurt expression in front of you. It's also very easy to mistake what the other person wanted to say, misinterpretate thjavascript:void(0)eir words, because u cant hear the tone of their voice while their saying it. Internet makes rly everything a lot easier. And it makes me a lot worser person than I really am in real. I don't rmb since I started being like this. I used to be the same over internet as I was in real as well. I guess over the years u spend over ur computer u start putting too much meaning into what happens online only. In a way it's a normal conversation your having over MSN just the same you could have in real with the person too. It's fine for normal topics. But I guess some topics shouldn't be discussed over online. But I don't think I could repeat all the hurtfull thing's I wrote to my boyfriend to his face in real. I myself became too spoiled with internet, crossing the line of what should stay off of online world. But I assume it's also not easy for all the ppl who have a far relationship. To not take online matter too personal, since most of the time is online. It's not real through. In most cases you can't tell anything about the person from just what they appear to you like online. Thing's should be only judged from what happens between 4 eyes. Yet I know myself, I probably won't stick to my own words.

I didn't know what I would write when I came here. I wonder if I will ever read the rubbish I just now wrote.

Being sick is boring

My posts r getting less and less these last days, since I'm at home with a cold I don't rly have a lot to write about. But sigh damn I wanna be going out =.= I rly hate being sick, when I was younger it was at least an excuse to not go school, but now that I have a far studium which I don't even need to attend its RLY CRAP TO GET SICK! Well, yea it's rly damn cold and ugly outside, but I still love to go out and breathe the air each time the season changes. It smells different each season & these days it smells like winter already. These hasn't been much autumn tho. Maybe I have had too much contact with ppl from england. I'm becoming a weather freak lol. I'm starting to wonder how this year's X-Mas and New Year will be. Or how my 20th Bday will be -_-' Damn I'm getting old, I don't wanna cross the teen-years line. I'm not rdy to be an complete adult yet Lol, feeling old already.


My new fav song!

Right? No, Wrong...

Althrough I was determined to update on a daily basis, this is how it always ends with my diary/blog. Also, the days have been pretty uneventfull, ugly rainy weather, cold and strong wind. Was spending both days at home. Also it looks like I'm starting to get sick, from breathing cold air all night long. It's still only october, we haven't even turned on the heating yet. Rly didn't expect to suddenly be this damn cold. Well the weather perfectly reflects my mood the past days. Thing's were happening, althrough I won't mention them here. As this blog is easily accesible and I don't think it's everyones business. I still think it was a good decision on my side, good for me, but guess I am never determined enough since I always take it back. I'm back to where I was before, as not happy as always & still on the looser-end. And since I erased everything from before, it's even more complicated now. Or let's say just annoying. It doesn't feel the same as before anymore either. My new fav song below, to this occasion.

and PS: 'Happy' 6th anniversary to me...

Ugly Saturday Afternoon

Ok, I know exactly what the weather outside reminds me of. Depressive dark sky, rain & no clouds. If I knew no better I would say we skipped autumn and went straight for winter after summer. It's rly making me damn sleepy and lazy, just wish to sit behind my pc with a cup of coffee, cuddled up in a blanket. Instead of, like I did today, going out into the ugly weather. Yesterday I was asked to accompany my exbf for a shopping tour, so I had to set alarm clock for a SATURDAY as well.

Eh last night I didn't manage to sleep till 6am again. Was watching this horrible movie Faktor 8 - Der Tag is gekommen (Factor 8 - The Day has arrived)

*** This comment may contain spoilers ***

This movie is about a presumed virus outbreak during a flight from south Asia to Munich. Most of all, the scientific premise is utterly wrong. Retroviruses is shown as multiplying in erythrocytes, which lack a) DNA (necessary for retrovirus replication) and b) the enzymatic apparatus for multiplying any viral nucleic acids.

Well yea, not very nice to watch when there r so many viruses the last years & especially since there is Swine Flu atm. In any case, all of them died in the end =.=

Then I kinda shocked till cannot sleep anymore, n search sites like http://www.planecrashinfo.com/rates.htm lol. Since I mentioned flying to London in my post yesterday, this movie did me no good lol.

In any case...didn't get to sleep till 6am, so no wonder that i got out of bed at 11.30am instead of 10am, after re-setting my alarm for later at least 2-3 times. And also it's not easy to wake up when the weather is so awfull with no sunshine at all. So once I was ready I got picked up by my exbf at 2pm n went to the Shopping Center Avion & I kinda wish we didnt go. It took at least 10minutes with the car and by the end I was getting kinda stomach sick already, then when we arrived at Avion, there was no way we could find a free parking slot. That were another 5minutes of driving in a circle looking if some car didnt magically disappear. What happened after we got a parking slot is easily describe-able with 3 words - Came Saw Left. Don't know if all the hassle was worth the 1h30min of looking around shops, but I have to say I sure saw some cute things. After Avion we drove back to Obchodna for coffee&cake. By that time I was so done with the weather, I was doozing off in my chair over the coffee. The loud group of 14-15 year olds next to us didn't help either, as they were so loud I could barely hear my own word. Same goes for the stupid people on the street wearing Slovakia and Slovenia flags, stupid football match tonight. I hope this day doesn't get any worser. As today was pretty much uneventfull I don't have a lot to write like in the previous posts.


So much for my hopes for nice sunny weather


See?! NO parking slot at all. Like don't ppl have anything better to do on a rainy saturday than shopping? Do only I feel like sleep?


I will regret uploading this. But I was damn bored while driving in a circle.


The best pair of slippers I ever saw LOl There were Playboy bunny ones and Hello kitty as well


CUTE Jewellery Boxes. I just wish they would be bigger, so I could actually put more inside than 1 pair of earrings.


Fishies




Birdies


This one was very eager to get his head into the picture


I wonder ppl these days STILL aren't ashamed to drive smth like this?

Went there again for nothing!

First, before I start writting about what I actually did today, I wanna post here a few pics of my cat after her shower yesterday. The moment I closed her in bathroom she went to hide in the very corner of the bathroom Lol & started a very pitifull meowing. The same attitude while showering her, while trying to escape from the bathtub. I almost thought im somehow hurting her, or the water being too hot. In any case, poor kitty pics bellow >>>







Also last night I went bed at 3am. Guess who was still awake at 4.30am...righty, me. Insomnia getting back to me? I don't know, I actually fell asleep without problems the last few nights. I wonder why yesterday, I didn't even have a coffee overdose. But after 1.30h of rolling in bed to the side and turning head each time smth interesting came on tv, after having to fight off an annoying fly every few minutes, I gave up. I stood up & went back to pc (with a cup of coffee). I guess u can't rly imagine my surprise when I still saw my boyfriend online on MSN. The person who always begs to go bed & is falling asleep on table behind pc. Maybe it's easier to just copy paste the reason & the following conversation below, than trying to summarise it. I won't copy paste all, would be too much flooding, just the important lines.

Me - erm wtf u still doing online (yea im so polite n friendly)

Fan - Just discovered a bargain with ryanair. Well, either a bargain, or a bug with their website. £0 tickets. Completely free. On the payment screen all boxes are greyed out. I've never seen it like this in the past 2 and half years. Baby wanna come to london? =x

>At this point I already smell trouble<

Fan - I booked some tickets already. Got confirmation details like before, so it works. (not tickets for you) (but i'm trying to find some)Don't wan?

Me - I did think i visit one day, but to make sure i make my way there, i was thinking more of you comming here, then i comming there with u, then me going home alone.

Fan - That's exactly what i'm thinking. But kinda hard to find tickets for accomodate all that ;;;

Me - Slow down lol i cant just disappear on a plane like that lol. Unless it would be a day trip, which i could mask in front of my parents. But either way i dont even own a passport.

Fan - Don't need one. U can use ur ID card.

>Reason #1 to decline trashed<

Fan - Hmm daytrip won't really work. You would end up with only 4 hours inside london.

Me - Just for info... when r the flights...

Fan - Random times in november mostly. But i don't think i can manage to find tickets to suit those requirements x.x

Me - Good then

Fan - U don't want to come then .___.'

Me - I do but not when u announce it to me at 5am friday morning. Its not like that for me. I need to tell parents, or have a proper lie, im not working i also need money, and i have school on monday and i cant be rly away at weekends.

>What I say get's ignored, see below<

Fan - If you don't need me to accompany you on the way here. Then u can come on the 4th wednesday, evening and go back saturday morning.

Me - Hello? Did u read? What u expect me to tell parents?! That's 3 nights outside of Bratislava.

Fan - Daytrip? I'll take you on the world's first "London in 4 hours" tour.

>I guess 3 days or one day, doesn't rly matter? So keen on getting me to visit<


And the conversation went on in the same manner. Telling me at 5am in the morning that I can (Can?!!? or HAVE TO = = ) fly to London in november already. Nothing of what I said really made him stop convincing me and searching for a flight that would suit me lol. I never in my life went somewhere so far. Like max into wien?! I NEVER was on a plane and oh...did I mention...I'm kinda scared of flying...With my luck the thing will come crashing down with me on it! I don't wanna die yet! Yes I know there r a lot more car accidents than plane accident. But car accidents usually contain 2-4 ppl, while the board of a plane contains how much? 50? More? ._.' I will die on a plane =/ Also it is very convenient to have your boyfriend organise everything for you and just presents you with the finished thing...But I prefer things to be shown to me once, so I know myself how to organise all the stuff the next time. Surely he had no bad intentions (if I forgive him his ignorance of all my objections lol) but that's a bit toooooo rushed for me? I don't even own any credit cards or proper bank cards ( I have one but thats rly useless for everything online, the most i can do with that poor card is Internet Banking, that wont help me even book an hotel or flight myself!!! ), also unemployed atm. Like, if I go London I can't go halfway home n ask daddy give me more money =x And I'm definitely not going without having the money for it, that's not how u go for trips LOl. Also what if I get lost >:{ My orientation sense sucks, althrough my english is fluent. But then again, this opportunity is pretty much presented to me on a silver plate. I would want to go, but not blindly without knowing how things will go once I'm there. Will see how things turn out until the end of november for me...the situation might change completely and i might actually be able to go with no problems.

Anyway, this was all from yesterday night & early morning. Today, as I promised myself yesterday, I went for the institute search again! This time a bit more clever after looking into the map last night and this time if i was stupid enough to not find it again, i WOULD ask someone...pretending I didn't live here for 19 years...At around 2pm I took the tram 7 from under my apartement to spare myself the effort of walking there, when I have tram tickets in my wallet anyway. The weather also isn't very ideal for a nice walk. Raining all morning, cold, windy and cloudy...You get the idea, tram. Was only 2 stops later that I got out of the tram again, crossed the street like I did yesterday & went for the street next to the one i ended up on yesterday. And guess what...I found this rly obvious building, I saw it yesterday too, I just didnt bother to look at the door from the side.



Clever huh? As pleased as I was with finding it, as displeased I was when I walked up the stairs and saw the opening times...



Monday: 8am - 12am >Lunch Break< 1pm - 3pm
Tuesday: 8am - 12am >Lunch Break< 1pm - 3pm
Wednesday: 8.30am - 12am >Lunch Break< 1pm - 5pm
Thursday: Closed (Oh, not to forget, thursday was yesterday, when I went there first day, althrough I didn't find it yesterday, even if I would it would be good for nothing for me, since it would be closed)
Friday: 8am - 12am (I got there at around 2.30pm. Great isn't it?!)

Went there the second day in a row for nothing and nothing again! On the other side, I'm sure it's nice to be working there. I mean...such work hours, not that bad issit... At least I found it this time...Now when I know where the building is and when its openned, I'll make sure that I dont go there the 3rd time for nothing again.

I turned around n started making my way back. The weather is everything but nice today. Rainy & cold, cloudy as well. The ideal day to just stay at home, in warmth and do some relaxing, instead of going around city for crap like this. After a while the freezing wind gave me a headache & althrough it was cold and I was walking slowly (judging from wearing heels and the ppl which were over-taking me) I got overheated and almost started sweating? What's that? I could understand if I was in a hurry, but I was walking on a slow pace & struggling. Guess I'm not used to that kind of thing anymore? To be honest I wasn't going out THAT much the past year, nor did I do anything to keep fit or ... But to be fair I only slept around 4 hours last night, maybe that's why I got exhausted and felt weak so fast. It was ok as soon as I got back on my street. I decided to go for a little bargain shopping & what a bargain shopping. I guess the things I bought don't need to be mentioned here but let me at least say it were 5 things for less than 10 euro. This isn't rly how I imagined my friday through. I wanted to go out, but I only have 3 ppl to go out & all of them already had different plans...I guess that's what comes out of last minute planning? Linda already had plans to go somewhere & since I had a feeling it included a lot of smoke, weird ugly guys and her boyfriend...I didn't think about asking to join in. Better not. Klaudia had to take care of her sick grandma and my Ex-boyfriend wasn't in the city anymore. Althrough if it's me who asks, he would probably come back again lol, but erm I guess I drop it for today. I guess it's ok to spend a day like today at home, considering how ugly and cold it's outside. Since I still had plently of things to write here & I did do at lest something, I wont feel too bad for not going out friday night.

Making up with an old friend sure is refreshing

Second post today, so this one wont be as short as the previous one. Althrough I'm pretty sure it wont be too long either. Seeying as I never wake up before 1pm if I dont set any alarm clock, I decided to set a loud radio alarm at 11am. Yea not too early but oh well, what would I do all day long if I fell out of bed at 6am? Nothing. Exactly. Maybe I should start going out with the dog early mornings and do some running as well. My back would probably kill me. Two days ago my exbf told me, that I'll be going like a grandma in 10 years...Bend forward, with some walk support and whining how everything hurts me lol. Nice things to look foward...I should really start going to those rehabilitations with my scoliosis.

Didn't feel like doing anything today really but went shower anyway. By the time I was done with dressing and make up and had at least one cup of coffee behind me ( necesarry to make me human in the mornings ) it was after 2pm. That's when an old childhood friend called me asking if I wanted to meet for a quick coffee before her italian language course. Sure, why not, that's my plan anyway, making up with old friends and get more social life. The last time we saw each other was in march before we had a 'minor' arguement. In any case it was a stupid thing to argue about and rly, long year friendships shouldnt be wasted over such crap. So we agreed to meet at 16:30. In the mean time I decided to today FINALY go to the Institue of work,family and social stuff. Seeying as I'm 19, unemployed and attending a FAR studium at a private school, I have to register or the state wouldn't pay for any of my medical expenses. The thing here in slovakia is that when you're still studying the school pays for you, when u have a job the boss deduces it from your salary, but when ur unemployed (and like me, attending a far studium, which doesn't count as a REAL school, since it's not daily attendance) u have to go register or else you would have to pay for all medical services in full price. And i REALLY don't wanna know how much that would be... And also, the rent here in slovakia is counted out from how many years you worked and how much money u were earning. If I wouldn't go register I would have empty years in this and later it would be found out. Lol no need to make a debt by the state already at 19, my dentist or doctor wouldnt find out about my situation by themselves...but yea better not get myself into problems...I think i have been by dentist already this year, without knowing about this issue. Wonder if i be found out and have to pay lol. Anyway...And this is smth i shouldn't be happy or proud of...I will be getting free 150Euro from the state as being unemployed and over 18...lol...not that much. I can't imagine how someone can live with 150Euro in a month when they also have to pay rent,gas,electricity...We'll I still live with parents so I dont need to worry about not being able to survive yet. For me it's free money as I have no expenses...At least no other than my almost daily visit's at Coffee&Co. What to say, coffee addict.

In any case, I got out of house at around 14:30. I did some internet research before hand, as i have absolutely NO orientation sense. Found it to be on Vazovova 7/A. Linda, my childhood best friend was attending high school on that street, so I thought to myself it can't be THAT hard to find (but only after I got told by my ex the day before, that THAT'S the street where Linda was studying...else I wouldn't even know...ayia...orientation sense zero). So I went on my way...halfway knowing where I'm heading, but i suppose i had to look a bit lost looking around myself at the street names on the buildings, as some ppl were looking weirdly at me, as if i would be a tourist =.= Well I did find Vazovova street, i EVEN found Vazovova 7...So I'm sure u can imagine my surprise when it wasnt the Institute i was searching, instead there was a small ugly key shop...Ok...I went up and down both sides of the streets. The thing is the street was only labelled 1 2 3...7...but not 1/A 2/A 3/A OR 7/A...I thought to myself that maybe the street continues on the opposide side of the road. So I crossed just to do a small halfcircle around the street and see a different street name. Ok ... Giving up. Was kinda hot outside, the air was not fresh and as i made a habit out of always listening to music when being out...all of that resulted in a headache, so I headed home. Once home I opened a map ( Sometimes I don't feel like I live here 19 years, since my chinese boyfriend from England has a better orientation around Bratislava than I do...That's what living in the city center and on the main shopping street, where everything is just few minutes away from ur place does to you. Im too spoiled by having everything right under my nose, that resulted by me in absolutely NO orientation sense.)to find out that the streed indeed DOES continue on the other side of the road...but that the two streets r not even really connected...The second part of Vazovova street is in the middle of the street I saw when i crossed. How clever. I really shouldn't be going somewhere, where I nvr was before by my own. 1.I might never even make it out of the house, so I like to ask someone to accompany me, so i know that they kick my ass out of my place and straight to the place i need to go. 2. My orientation sense, as i already mentioned, is LESS than ZERO. Well fine, too lazy to go a second time, I'll leave it for tmr.

Short after I got home, complained to my bf & took some painkillers to reduce the headache, Klaudia called that she be there in 15minutes...Eh? I thought we made the date for 16:30pm? It was only 15:00pm...We'll good that i got home so early i guess. 15mins later she rly was downstairs waiting for me to come out. Was a bit weird to start the conversation at begin, after not talking since 7months ...I guess I seemed a bit uncomfortable as she told me that there is no reason to be so stiff. Eh yea...right. We did some little update on each others life, me dying my hair red again, being unemployed and attending a far studium. She working in her parents Pizzeria, attending an italian language course (like my spring semester of french...DAMN i wanna continue learning french !@&#!$@&#$!&@^!!! sigh, maybe next spring again) while waiting for february to apply to another university, as she was rejected from the one she applied before. Well, she can accompany me to the institue if I dont make it there tmr...She also needs to register. As soon as we arrived at coffee&Co (5minutes walk from my apartement) the topic came to our previous argument. She mentioned Linda was visiting her some time ago & asked her about this. Guess what she said after? She forgot. Yea she forgot about the fight we had LoL Then remembered that she didn't see me in a long time & decided to ask me out. Ok. I wasn't going to make a big deal out of the argument. It was childish & both of us were in the wrong. But I don't forget I had a fight with one of my friends. Lol. How carefree some ppl can be lol just pushing smth like that out of their memory. In any case we had a quite nice relaxed chat, as if those 7months didn't really pass & then I brought her halfway to her Italian Course. Why didn't we make up sooner. Now it seems like such a trivial thing to ignore each other for 7months. Well usually I don't make the first step, althrough i wasnt angry since long anymore. Glad I went today. I also mentioned I would like to go clubbing next friday & that I would like her to tag along. Hope that one works out.

No point post but a MUST SEE video

Ok I rly dont know what to post as first on my blog, as this is my first non one-post-pet-month blog. Instead I'll try to update this daily, althrough I know no one is interested in the boring shyt I might write here =X In any case no real post today so I'll leave it today with this video. I laughed my ass off on this parody.