Good morning... Sigh hard morning already. First forgot my badge at home so had to return halfway and take a tram so I'm not late, then some woman was asking me in the tram goes to the railway station when I had earphones on, managed to tell her to take the tram 13 and not 7, and then at work a lot of guys in the kitchen and I had to literally make my way through and then some guy spoke at me and I didn't even know in what language to reply cause he was signalizing if he can use the sink... zzz T_T I'm half asleep eh... sigh... why is life so hard at me. Even after 7 hours I'm still too tired.

Also last night sigh eh... went angry. I just don't know what to do eh. Will miss the sleeping together and hugs the most. Now who else do I get my amount of hugs from?... sigh so cruel... T_T Ok sleeping together the most...can non-couple people still do that? No? Duh... Also who am I gonna go for coctail and botanical garden this year. I really don't want to break up. I repeat myself every day on this but guess I can't move with him? It's damn unfair... He was dating me for over one year knowing that we won't be able to stay together forever and now he doesn't want to anymore. But I still want to go sunbath with him ... And cinema... And for coctails or coffee... And still want to sleep with him ... So what I do now? How many day more can I keep asking him to come back to me? I think I have been asking him one week straight... and he still didn't change his mind... I still want to see him too but eh... If not as my boyfriend what do I have from it. Can't do all the things I want to without excuses. I already went so far as saying that I don't mind a secret relationship. Truth is...I don't. But with every rejection I get more and more angry, till like yesterday. Sigh...This is how it ends when one person loves too much and the other person loves too little.